Soul Growth: Navigating Change Without a Map

MJ Wynn
Oct 2, 2024
3 min read

Updated: May 10

You ever get that feeling like something inside you is ready to grow, to shift into something bigger, but you have no idea how to make it happen? Yeah, that’s where I’m at—my soul’s going through some serious growing pains. It’s like I’m standing at the edge of a cliff, knowing I need to jump but not sure if I’ve got wings yet.

Life’s been serving me these weird moments of clarity and confusion all at once. You know, the kind where you feel both excited and scared out of your mind? It's like my soul is stretching, itching to grow into something more, but I can't quite figure out what that “more” even is. “Growth is uncomfortable,” they say, and let me tell you, they’re not lying.

Feeling Stuck in the "In-Between"

There’s something about being in your 30s that brings out this deep craving for change. Maybe it’s just that Millennial curse where we’re always thinking we should’ve figured it all out by now. But honestly, who ever has? The truth is, no one hands you a map for these kinds of transformations. You’ve got to feel your way through, and that’s terrifying.

Right now, I’m stuck in this space between who I was and who I want to be. I want to dive into my projects full-force, expand GirlyStonerPop, and turn it into something bigger than I ever imagined.

Every step forward feels like five steps of “WTF am I doing?”

Honestly, trying to grow is exhausting when you don’t have a clear path.

Growing Pains Aren’t Always Visible

Sometimes, it’s easy to confuse soul growth with external achievements. Like, if I could just land this job, finish this blog post, or launch this new podcast episode, then maybe I’d feel like I’m moving in the right direction. But soul growth doesn’t show up on paper. It shows up when you start feeling the friction between who you are and who you’re meant to be.

I think part of my growing pains comes from that constant inner dialogue of wanting to do more but feeling like I’m not “enough” yet. Am I creating the right things? Am I giving enough to my community? Am I even evolving at all, or just spinning my wheels? These questions weigh heavy on my mind, but deep down, I know they’re part of the process.

Leaning Into the Discomfort

Here's the thing: growth isn't supposed to be comfortable.

Whether it’s physical, emotional, or spiritual, it hurts because you’re stretching into spaces you haven’t been in before. I guess that’s what makes it growth. I’ve realized that maybe it’s not about having all the answers, but just allowing myself to sit with the discomfort. Sometimes, that’s where the magic happens.

I’m learning to embrace the uncertainty, even though it sucks. It’s like telling myself, “Hey, it’s okay to feel lost,” and remembering that this uncomfortable phase is just as important as the breakthrough. You don’t get the wings without going through the transformation.

Trusting the Process

It’s hard to trust a process you can’t fully see. But I think part of soul growth is trusting that you’re being led to exactly where you need to be, even if it feels messy right now. GirlyStonerPop didn’t come to life overnight; it’s been a journey of trial, error, and a lot of “let’s just see what happens.”

This soul expansion feels the same—it’s chaotic, but there’s beauty in the chaos.

Maybe you’re feeling the same way. Maybe your soul’s also tugging at you to grow into something more, but you’re unsure of what that looks like. My advice? Don’t rush it. Let yourself feel the growing pains. Sit with the discomfort, the confusion, and the messiness of it all. Trust that you’ll get there, even if you don’t know how yet. After all, growth isn’t a destination; it’s the journey we’re on every day.

And right now? I’m just trying to embrace every step of the way.

🌷 Signed, MJ