From Flirts to Forever: A Midnight Epiphany

MJ Wynn
Aug 2, 2024
2 min read

Updated: May 10

Here I am, wide awake at 1 am, serenaded by the gentle lullaby of my girlfriend’s sleep through Discord. Yeah, you read that right—I’m listening to her snooze away because, well, sleep and I have never been besties. And in this peaceful moment, all I can think is, “Wow, I’m the luckiest person alive.” I get to hear her breathe, watch her dream when we’re together, and wake up to her every single morning. Her sweet pet names and the warmth in her voice? Pure magic.

Rewind to January 2024

At the grand old age of 33, I had an epiphany: I’d spent my whole life trying to shove my round self into a square hole. Turns out, I’m a lesbian. Looking back, the clues were glaringly obvious, like a neon sign in the middle of nowhere. Sure, I knew I was bi in my teens, and I dabbled with girls here and there. But somehow, my relationship history reads like a roster of men—95% of the time, anyway. I did have a couple of girlfriends and a memorable fling in my younger years, though.

Fast forward to my late 20s, and bam—I’m married. To a man. Biggest mistake ever. And trust me, I’ve made some doozies.

That marriage was a lesson in knowing when to fold ‘em. I regret every second wasted on him. But hey, I’m all about that new-age hippie vibe now: if it’s out of my hands, I let it go. I’m even passing this zen mindset to my girlfriend, who really needs it. Love you, baby! 💋

The Beginning of Something Beautiful

Now, let’s rewind a bit more to Autumn 2023. Fresh out of my marriage and not quite ready to jump back into the dating pool, I found myself casually flirting with my now-girlfriend. We had history, so the banter was easy and fun. One day, we tossed around the “no strings attached” idea. And boy, did I cling to that notion—probably way longer than I should have.

I was perfectly fine with our casual thing, but deep down, I was scared to face the truth. As I type this, my fingers hesitate, but the feelings she evokes in me are undeniable.