Documenting My 30s—The Reality Behind My YouTube Project

---

So, here’s the deal—starting a project like 'Documenting My 30s' is both exhilarating and, let’s be real, a little chaotic. When I first had the idea to document my thirties, I was in this dreamy headspace of creating something raw, relatable, and just super me. But as with most things I dive into, the reality behind the scenes is way more of a mixed bag than I expected.

(on hold)

I figured, “I’m 33 now, I’ve got a handle on who I am, I know what I want, this will be fun!”

Oh, how naive, right? I guess I didn’t account for the messy parts—both in life and in figuring out how the hell I’d actually document this whole journey. But honestly, that’s what makes it fun.

---

From Vision to... Life Reality Check 🎀

The idea for Documenting My 30s started during one of my late-night brainstorming sessions (AKA smoking and overthinking). It felt like the perfect way to capture everything—from the milestones to the awkward in-betweens, the triumphs and the times I’ve faceplanted (emotionally or otherwise). I envisioned this polished, inspiring YouTube series that would encapsulate all the highs and lows of this decade. You know, like a super curated highlight reel but with more realness.

But reality? It’s more like a mix of procrastination, random bursts of creative energy, and my constant balancing act with my ADHD. Recording feels like a dream until I realize I’ve been avoiding editing because, surprise, I don’t love hearing my own voice for hours on end.

And don't get me started on the times I forget to hit record... classic Kass move.

---

Navigating Creativity and Chaos 🍃

What I didn’t really expect was how much this project would reveal about where I am *now* in my 30s. Like, this isn’t just a creative venture—it’s a reflection of the real me, figuring shit out on the fly, trying to hold onto the idea that I can make something meaningful without everything being perfect.

This whole documenting process has also opened my eyes to how I work as a creator. I thrive on spontaneity, but that also means dealing with the disorganization that comes with it. Sometimes I’ll have this epic vision for a video, only to get distracted halfway through and end up with a totally different (yet still on-brand) result.

The journey of getting from “concept” to “final upload” is like a stoner’s road trip—full of detours, snack breaks, and the occasional deep convo with myself.

---

Finding Growth in the Chaos 🎬

But here’s the thing—what I’m learning is that it’s all part of the process. My 30s are messy, just like this project. And it’s totally okay. It’s actually kind of beautiful. The more I work on Documenting My 30s, the more I’m realizing that it’s not just about capturing moments; it’s about letting myself be seen as I am. No filter, no trying to look like I’ve got it all together. Just raw, unfiltered me—stoner vibes, ADHD struggles, creative highs, and all.

Documenting My 30s is evolving, just like I am. Some days I nail it. Other days, I’m a hot mess. But isn’t that kind of the point? I’m not here to be polished or perfect—I’m here to be real.

If anything, this project is teaching me that growth doesn’t always look like a straight line. Sometimes it’s a loop-de-loop, sometimes it’s a standstill, and sometimes it’s just learning to appreciate where you’re at, even when it’s chaotic AF. And for me, that’s a vibe worth documenting.

---

🌷  Signed, MJ